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Total Subscribers: 1030 View All Subscribers happy new year everyone, lol 7 comments & 21 new subs?! that's how it always should be :) i believe in karma. what you give is what you get returned. i believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned. i believe the grass is greener on the other side. i believe you don't know what you've got until you have to say goodbye. it's so amazing when you fall in love for the first time. it's all so new. the butterflies, smiles, hugs, and all of the nights spent on the phone. what makes it even more amazing is that it never really ends. if you truly love somebody, you never really stop. you'll move on, you'll try to replace, but there are always going to be times when you think back to the times when you really felt alive. set your standards high and never settle for less. believe in yourself no matter what. but don't worry if you stray because the most important thing is what you've learned along the way. take all you've become to be all that you can be. soar above the clouds and let your dreams be set free. 
i hope someday somebody wants to hold you for 20 minutes straight and that's all they do. they don't pull away. they don't look at your face. they don't try to kiss you. all they do is wrap you up in their arms without an ounce of selfishness in it. - waitress <3 being without him would lead her to fall short in life, because life is not complete when a part of your heart is missing. barefoot or first thing in the morning, i feel beautiful. i didn't always feel that way, but i feel that way now. when somebody just loves you, and when you make somebody else happy, when your presence seems to make them happy, you suddenly feel like the most beautiful person in the world. - angelina jolie. <3 
if you want something you've never had, do something you've never done. my mom always told me to remember the three L's: live laugh & love. she always asked me which was most important and i would say live because if you don't live you can't laugh and love. however, she was always there to correct me and tell me love was the most important because if you never find love you'll never fully laugh and never completely understand the meaning of living with the one you love. there will always be that one guy, that one kiss, that one moment, that she'll remember for the rest of her life. 
you spend your life thinking you're on the right track, only to discover you're on the wrong train. missing someone isn't about how long it has been since you have seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. it's about that very moment when you're doing something and you wish that they were right there with you. there's always going to be that one awkward moment when you walk by that person & remember all that you once had. 
the most important thing in life is your family. there are days you love them, and others you don't, but in the end they're the people that * you always come home to. sometimes, its the family you're born into and sometimes it's the one that you make for yourself. <3 when you judge someone, you don't define them. you define yourself. before, my fear was being vulnerable. the ability of another human being to possibly tear apart your insides at any given moment was enough to keep me running. he, however, made my insides come alive. my smile become permanent, and laughter more frequent. he took away my fear and gave me hope. but more importantly, for the first time in my life, instead of wanting to run, he gave me every reason to stay. 
you've changed me ; shaped me into this girl who is actually capable of loving someone * when just months ago, she couldn't even love herself. i am just like every other girl out there, wondering how i will survive without him. but guess what? i am. i underestimated my strength, along with a million other girls. i just realized that he needed me more than i needed him. & in the end, it was his loss. look, i guarantee that we'll have tough times. and i guarantee that at some point, one or both of us will want to get out of this thing. but i also guarantee that if i don't ask you to be mine, i'll regret it for the rest of my life. because i know in my heart, you're the only one for me. 
don't count the days ; make the days count. the minute you settle for less than you deserve, you get even less than what you settled for. * don't be afraid to believe that you can have - what you want & have what you deserve. i'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue, i'm sorry about all things i said to you and i know i can't take it back. i love how you kiss, i love all your sounds, and baby the way you make my world go round. and i just wanted to say, i'm sorry. - buckcherry <3 
when he was with you, he was really with you. he looked you straight in the eye & listened as if you were the only person in the world. you want to know what love is? it's waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, shifting under the blankets, & feeling the heat of the person next to you. you turn around & see them in their most peaceful, innocent, & vulnerable state. they breathe as though the weight of the world lies on anyone's shoulders but their own. you smile, kiss their face in the most gentle manner so, as not to wake them. you turn back around and involuntarily a grin forms on your own face. you feel an arm wrap around your waist, & you know, it doesn't get any better than this. here's a toast, to the good days, the better friends. the ones that you just can't live without. the people that have taught you how to party, how to live, how to have a good time just sitting around. here are to the people that no matter how bad things seem, are going to be there for you to lean back on & catch you if you fall. 
she fell asleep for only a minute but when she awoke she found herself lying on his chest, feeling him breathing steadily beneath her, his arm was draped around her shoulders & it seemed like he didn't want her to leave, ever. she whispered in his ear, though she knew he was asleep, "oh baby. if i could wake up like this every single day, i would always be happy." sometimes someone comes into your life that changes everything. raises your standards, makes you laugh, & makes you feel like you. there's something about him that you can't put into words, & even though you're not even with him, you don't want to let him go. ever have that one person in your life that you just can't give up on, the one person who can screw you over time after time yet you always seem to give them another chance, & no matter how many times you say this is their last one, you know its a lie because there's always just one more waiting for them. the one person you know you're better off without but yet you can't find a way to let them go because deep down inside you wouldn't know what to do with out them. the one person that you know doesn't deserve you but yet you choose to overlook it. because you love him.. 
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she was an ordinary girl who was falling for that boy who wasn't there to catch her. he misses you? good, he should. you're sexy, pretty, fun, outgoing and fun to be around. guys that haven't met you yet, miss you. but don't get back together with him because somewhere out there there is a guy searching really hard for you. he's the one that deserves someone amazing like you. let him have it and not the asshole that left you. sometimes someone comes into your life that changes everything. raises your standards, makes you laugh, & makes you feel like you. there`s something about him that you can`t put into words, & even though you`re not even with him, you don`t want to let him go. 
back up, back up take another chance, don't you mess up, mess up i don't wanna lose you. wake up, wake up this ain't just a thing you give up, give up. don't you say that i'd be better off, better off sitting by myself. wondering if i'd be better off, better off without you boy. the sun don`t shine forever but as long as it’s here, we might as well shine together. never mind the weather, we`ll build a love that will last forever. my heart is that crack in the sidewalk that you walk on everyday. 
you're a wonderful person. you've got so much to offer someone and i hope that one day you'll finally meet the person who can make sense of all that pain you're carrying around. you deserve that. in my heart, i know you didn't mean to hurt me. but i can't take the chance of that happening again, especially when you're not serious about our future together. - the rescue; nicholas sparks you know when you listen to music playing from another room? and you’re singing along because it’s a tune you really love? then a door closes or a train passes by so you can’t hear the music anymore but you sing along anyway. then no matter how much time passes, when you hear the music again you’re still in the exact same time with it? that's what love is like. i can't unthink about you. i can't unfeel your touch. i can't unhear all the words or unsay all the things that used to mean so much. i wish i could unremember everything my heart's been through. i'm finding out it's impossible to do. i can't unlove you. 
kissing is like drinking salt water. you drink and your thirst increases. do you ever just sit & wonder why he chose you? do you ever stop & think that it was just too good to be true? does it ever seem like you`re afraid to lose him because without him your whole life will be ruined. it's been months since we've actually had a real conversation. it's been months since you last called. it's been months since i've seen your face. what we had seems like it's been forgotten & replaced. it seems like it was a one time deal, like i only had one chance with you, & that one chance has been screwed up. i didn't mean to. i let you go, i'll admit that, but i thought you'd care enough to come back. you always made me smile, but a smile isn't forever. but now it's too late, & i've moved on. 
remember the time you drove all night just to meet me in the morning and i thought it was strange. you said 'everything changed'. you felt as if you'd just woke up and you said, "this is the first day of my life". i'm glad i didn't die before i met you. but now i don't care i could go anywhere with you and and i'd probably be happy." it's just that... i don't want to be somebody's crush. if somebody likes me, i want them to like the real me, not what they think i am, and i don't want them to carry it around inside. i want them to show me, so i can feel it too. you will never forget your first love. that's what makes it so special. you love so hard, so deeply, and so intensely because you don’t know any different. it's the best until it is over. then you hurt like you've never been hurt before. eventually you love again, but you love differently. you will love more carefully and more cautiously, continually comparing that person to your first love. 
what's teenage love? it's staying up late for each other and barely staying awake in class the next day. it's passing each other between classes and stopping to say hi, but ending up running to your next class right before the bell rings. it's going to the mall, wandering around hand in hand, with a silence that's comfortable. it's watching a movie in the theaters with his arm slowly creeping onto your shoulders, and you resting your head in his arms. it's walking around at night for no reason at all; his chest, her head, looking at the stars. it's uncertainty of how long it will last, a risk you're both willing to take, even if it means you'll have a broken heart. it's not yet true love, not like, nor lust, nor infatuation. it's teenage love; here to stay, here to play with our hearts and never go away. listen, kid: love is the only chance for happiness you'll ever get in this life, and if you're going to let a little thing like rejection stand in your way, baby you might as well stay right there on the ground because people are going to be walking over you for the rest of your life. if you meet a "loner," no matter what they tell you, it's not because they enjoy solitude. it's because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them. 
it's not okay because he made me laugh. because i didn't have to pretend to be anything other than who i am when i was with him. because i don't believe that stuff about finding your other half, but because i do believe that what you look for is someone who makes you a better person when you're with them, who changes you for the better, who makes you the best person you can possibly be, & because i thought i had found that in him. kiss all the guys you can, because if you don't, you're always gonna wonder if he was the one you should've seen fireworks with. the open road is calling & begging for us. go roll down the window, go crank up that radio. let's drive until you hit the sky. it's not about where we will go. let's start living before we die. 
she smokes like there's no tomorrow. she says it makes her feel alive. she drinks her wine like water 'cause she feels dry inside. she drives her car like it's a bullet. she says that time is slipping away. she never thinks about her future. it's a million miles away. i'm sitting here wondering how could i write a quote about heart-pounding teenage-love when i've never experienced it. well being a teenager & watching my fair share of romance movies, i know one thing, & that is that love is magical. well at least it is in the movies. it's when two people come face to face by pure fate & look at each other with no intention of leaving, not for a minute. it usually ends all well & good; with a killer knock-your-socks-off kiss; with amazing passion. but in real life, love is messy, people fight & sometimes, despite the magic, they leave. so, love? well love is being able to put up with someone for 5 minutes at a time & liking it enough to come back for more. and if you play your cards right & the chemistry flows, maybe you too will get your happy ending, knock-your-socks-off kiss too, with lots of passion, of course. he asked me what i planned on doing for the rest of my life. when i said "i don't know," he got down on one knee and said; "wanna spend it with me?" 
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youu know you`re in love when youu wanna tell everyone about it, even when they haven`t asked. the greatest challenge in life is to find someone who knows all of your flaws, differences, and mistakes and yet still sees the best in you. “with guys, they're only gonna want what they can't have. nobody wants the beaten-up prada purse on canal street. everyone wants the brand-new colorful louis vuitton one that no one can get. guys don't want the girl who's been around the block." - paris hilton <3 
this is why you should never get your hopes up. this is why you should see the glass as half empty. so when the whole thing spills, you aren't as devestated. she said that she wanted to get high. he took her to the tallest hill in town. she said that she wanted to stay up all night and drink. he gave her a 12 pack of caffeinated pepsi and said "drink up." she said that she wanted to shoot herself in the face. he gave her a water gun, put her finger on the trigger, aimed it at her face, and helped her pull the trigger. she said that she wanted to cut herself. he took a polaroid of her, handed it to her along with scissors, and had her cut it up. she said that she wanted to see her blood. he took her to get her ears pierced. she said that she wanted to cry herself to sleep. he had her watch a sad, romantic movie before bed. she said that she wanted to be alone. he gave her a name tag that said "my name is: alone." she said that she wanted to have someone there to take care of her, always. he asked when he wasn't. remember all of the good times and all of the special people that were with you during them. let go of the past, but don`t forget it because there are a great many things that can be learned from what you have been through. and most importantly: follow your heart, stand up for what you believe in, and take your own path, always do what you want to do. <3 * 
there's nothing more valuable than having someone in your life that reminds you of who you are. <3 everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. loneliness hurts. rejection hurts. losing someone hurts. envy hurts. everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt. have you ever noticed how adults often compare their love to that of two teenagers? that's because our love is crazy, senseless and unlimited. it's the most ridiculously passionate love there is, and once we've had it, we'll spend the rest of our lives searching for a replica of it. 
in junior high school, there were days when you felt like nothing was worth getting out of bed for. but then, you remembered, you were going to see her. your day was gonna have all these moments, moments that were full of possibility. when you were sure that something, something was going to happen. - the wonder years <3 you don't give up just because things get hard. - ryan sheckler <3 once in a lifetime means there's no second chance, so i believe that you and me should grab it while we can. make it last forever and never give it back <3 - high school musical 2. 
i promise that if you give it your best shot, i'll give it mine & we'll impress the whole world and make them think twice about us <3 i was afraid of getting my heart broken again, like before. because you hurt me so bad, and i was afraid to be vulnerable. and i was afraid of you and the way that you make me feel. and i know that doesn't matter now after what i did, but i just thought that you should know. this was how i spent my summer, wanting you. i'm just too scared to admit it. don't let a guy build you up with his words because the higher you are, the harder you fall and trust me you always fall. 
it's those moments when you drive around in a car full of friends around a town too small for you. where you gasp for breath between each laugh. it's those moments where you get high off just breathing in so deep, you feel your lungs getting cold. for a second, that split second, you don't care. you don't care about school, about parents, about money, about rules, or broken hearts. who you care about are the kids sitting next to you. cause it's all we really need isn't it? those kids next to you. yeah, the ones who make you feel invincible, even at your weakest points. i get to make my own decisions, have my own life, do whatever i choose. & here's the good part.. what i choose is you. you're what i want to wake up to, go to bed with & do everything else in between. i wanted to smell the burnt midnight again. i wanted to feel the wind. it was a secret wanting like a song i couldn't stop humming, or loving someone i could never have. 
it's funny how when you finally get over someone. you start seeing them in a whole new perspective. it's like you're looking at them through the eyes of your best friend; & you realize he's nothing special. he's just another ordinary boy. somebody wants you ; somebody needs you somebody dreams about you every single night. we fell like shooting stars & autumn leaves, staying up later than the street lights. promising what could never be. i could never be anything without you. 
skip instead of a walk. order a diet water wherever you are and ask with a serious face. when the money comes out of the atm machine scream, "i won, i won!" and when you leave the zoo, run towards the parking lot yelling, "run for your lives! they're loose!" live life crazy. i want to be the smile, the first thought, the long drive or the short walk, the last voice, the random call, the laugh, the perfect kiss, the comfort hug, your second half, the sparkle in your eye, the everything you need, just what you want.. i want to be yours. <3 sweet like candy to my soul, sweet you rock and sweet you roll. lost for you, i'm so lost for you. 
it's not that our love died, it just never really bloomed. the true test of love; no matter how long you two go without talking, he'll always find a way back into your heart. no matter how hard you try to forget him, you can't. it's the little things that mean the most, but break your heart all at the same time. it's those times when a song comes on the radio & immediately you cry. missing him. wanting him. needing him. if you hold back feelings because you're afraid of getting hurt, you end up hurting, anyway. 
vanity was always my favorite sin. glamour was always my favorite weapon. pain was always my favorite pleasure. beauty was always my favorite crime. envy was always my favorite poison. love was always my favorite hate. fame was always my favorite motive. & life was always my favorite drug. i remember our first kiss, the butterflies. i know you felt them, too. i can still taste your lips. the night i wrapped all my love in you. when you open your locker & find a death threat taped inside, don't be alarmed. my best friend just found out you broke my heart. 
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i am coming to terms with the fact that loving someone requires a leap of faith, and that a soft landing is never guaranteed. we can bomb the world to pieces, but we can't bomb it into peace. sometimes i can`t believe you're the one i waited for so long. 
i promise that if you give it your best shot, i'll give it mine & we'll impress the whole world and make them think twice about us <3 she doesn't care if you call her and wake her up in the middle of the night. she hates arguing, but you know she's good at it. she's terrified of the dark, but when she thinks of you, she smiles. she laughs at your jokes even if they're dumb. she loves the way you look at her, and she wouldn't change that for the world. i was afraid of getting my heart broken again, like before. because you hurt me so bad, and i was afraid to be vulnerable. and i was afraid of you and the way that you make me feel. and i know that doesn't matter now after what i did, but i just thought that you should know. this was how i spent my summer, wanting you. i'm just too scared to admit it. 
being happy isn't about having everything in your life perfect. maybe it's about stringing together all the little things. everyone has someone in their life that keeps them looking forward to another day <3 in this world, people are going to say don`t do this, don`t do this, don`t do this. you know what your going to end up with? nothing to do. - america's next top model <3 
it's so weird & confusing that when i say i don't know what to do, i really mean it. one minute you`re making me laugh out loud, like no other guy can, & the next i just want to get up & leave cause you piss me off so much. it's kind of hard for me to explain, but i just have this feeling when i'm with you & i know we're supposed to be together. i'm not crying right now cause i don't want you to leave. i don't, by the way. i'm crying cause i thought that i could be the one who could change your mind.. i guess i just thought that i was a good enough reason for you to stay. 
after i wake up from dreaming about you, i have the biggest smile on my face, then it quickly fades away, cause i realize that it was just a dream, & you're not really mine. don't worry about it. it's time to move on. you'll have your friends to confide in, to find comfort in, to cherish. & he'll have his stupid guitar, his ugly face, & his..nothing. you'll be strong enough to go about daily life without him. & he'll try & catch your eye, & raise his voice just to get noticed by you. so don`t worry about it. he's not worth your attention. not anymore. i wish we'd never had those good times, never laughed together & eaten your toasted sandwiches together, i wish you'd never held me tight & whispered into my ear how much you loved me, then tried to show me how much by spreading your arms as far as they could go. 'cause now those times are so far away, & i miss them more & more each day, as you cut me off from your memory. 
& now the times are changing, look at everything that`s come & gone. sometimes when i go play that old six string, i think about you & wonder what went wrong. - summer of '69; bryan adams <3 it's the people who hug you & never want to let go. the people who you haven't seen for months, but nothing has changed at all. the people who give to you more than you give to them. the people that truly understand who you are. the people who you cry about, the people who you live for. the people in your photographs that have light genuinely shining through their eyes & their smile. those are the people that take your breath away. <3 you want to know the hardest thing about summer? not falling in love & wondering if it will last..no, it`s putting on a bra over a sunburn. 
there's something about the look in your eyes something i've noticed when the light was just right it reminded me twice that i was alive & it reminded me that you're so worth the fight. did you know i kept all of your pictures? i don't have the strength to part with them yet. i tried to erase the way your kisses taste but some things a girl can never forget. so tell me now, what hurts more? thinking that you should hate him or knowing that you don't. </3 
just like ships, we float through each other’s lives, through the waters of beauty & grace. we will one day dock at the same port & give rest to our weary legs. i'd spend a million nights just like tonight, you know. just staring up at the starry night sky thinking about you. well, i would give my life for you. i'm stretching, but you're just out of reach. i'm ready when you're ready for me.* 
when i say 'i love you', it's not because i want you or because i can't have you. it has nothing to do with me. i love what you are, what you do, how you try. i've seen your kindness and your strength. i've seen the best and worst of you. & i understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are. | | |
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& he knew that he`d never have to say to me that he was sorry. his hand against my face, trying to wipe away my tears, said it all. boys are like purses, you're always gonna have that one boy that you're always comfortable with and you know you'll always kind of like. that's your purse that you wear everywhere. then you have that gorgeous bag that you want everyone to see you with, but the gorgeous bag is usually an asshole or costs a lot of money. then you have those other purses that you really like, but you really don't want to be seen with. - lauren conrad ; laguna beach you only want me when she doesn't want you. you played me just as bad as she plays you. 
i want sunshine, beach hair, the smell of coconuts, salt water and sand all over. i wanna drive 90 with all the windows down, and float in the pool. i wanna party with my best friends. i wanna watch fireworks and lie on the front lawn looking at the stars. i want an adventure every day. i want the morning after around a kitchen table, laughing about the night before. i want the next day with my friends on the front porch. i want summer. here is something you must always remember- you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is: even if we're apart, i'll always be with you <3 my biggest fear? no it's not spiders or snakes or even clowns. although i do tend to have nightmares about them. but this fear is much bigger. bigger than me or you. the fear of leaving this world without affecting someone's life. without leaving a memory of me somewhere on this earth. that's what i'm afraid of. 
i held him close to me with my eyes closed, wondering if anything in my life had ever been this perfect, and knowing at the same time that it hadn't. i was in love, and the feeling was even more wonderful than i ever imagined it could be. i tried to move on. i really did. i tried to tell myself that you don't want me and that i can't have you anymore. i tried so hard, but how can you let go of the only person who makes you happy? the only person who makes you feel alive? the only reason you're still here? you can't just let go of someone like that. i decided that enough is enough. that since you obviously don't care about me anymore, i'm going to move on. easier said than done, i suppose. because at the end of the day, i'm staring out the window with these tears on my cheeks. just look at what you've done to me. 
load my iPod up with songs we're gonna dance to. and head out to the beach. this is the life; bikinis and sunscreen, best friends and beaches, boys and kisses. i'm just a summer girl. i wear flip flops. when i let my hair down, that's when the party starts. who needs a boyfriend? i've got my girl friends. & when we get together, the summer never ends <3 you said you'd love me until the day you die & as far as i know, you're still alive. 
ever get the feeling when you wanna run away? your friends try to stop you & you don't know what to say. your parents suck & they fight all day.. it's getting late so you go to lay down, trying to sleep but it's dizzy all around. you've loved a guy but you're waiting too long. why does everyone's life feel so right when yours feels so wrong? you're trying to make the right choices to succeed..you feel alone & lost.. you just wish for a perfect life.. how much does that cost? you lose control, you keep getting mad, you realize everything you have just gets you sad. i learned that you gotta keep your head up & stay strong cause bullshit is something that was played all along. you go in the kitchen & grab a knife but then you think to yourself, it isn't worth ending my life. you know i used to spend everyday thinking about you & dreaming about you, & everytime you walked by; i lost myself, do you know what that feels like? & you couldn't possibly know what it feels like to have that person not have the same feelings back. look, i'm sorry if you miss the way i looked at you but i don't miss the way you never looked at me. your high school friends know who you are. but your elementary school friends know why. 
sometimes you have to test someone. not because you don't trust them, but to see how much they'll sacrifice for you. and sometimes you have to let them go; not because you suddenly stopped loving them, but to see if they love you enough to come back. he asked me if i was alright. and shocked i looked at him after ignoring me all day, you ripped out my heart, threw it on the ground, and jumped on it several times . yeah i'm alright. dumbass. if you think you're in love, don't get your hopes up. it's not love until you go through both good & bad times together. if you love someone, you would know why you love them. if you have no reason, then think about it. do you really love them? you would go through all these fights & break ups only to realize that there's no point, because you're always gonna get back together. you would spend time together, even if both of you are broke. love isn't about money; love is priceless. love is something you could never buy; love is when one of you makes a huge mistake, but then in the end you work it all out because you realize that it's just one mistake & it's not worth it, because all you want is for it to be forever. but then, never say forever because everything has a ending. but that's only in my opinion. love is a strong word & has many definitions. listen to me or not, why do i care? what do i know? i've never been in love. 
you know someone is a true friend when you are about to break down & cry but they will say the stupidest, most random thing just to see you smile. <3 =) there once was a girl who hung out with her friends every friday night. a girl who would say 'lol' after every four words. she would laugh when she slipped while ice skating & just flowed through life without a problem. over the summer, the girl fell. no, not from ice skating, but for a boy. he was perfect. perfect hair, perfect smile, perfect everything. he told her he loved her one day, but little did she know she was caught up in his trap. days later, she got a call from him saying, "i don't love you anymore. you're not worth the attention." & the phone was hung up. school started & this girl walked to lunch alone. she laughed, but only when she thought about how stupid she was to fall for him, & discarded all her friends from any future friday night fun. what happened to the up-beat, loving girl? i`m really starting to miss her more & more. we used to be able to talk about everything, but now it`s impossible to even start a decent conversation with you. you can`t deny it, things have changed. we`ve grown apart, & you have to face the fact that i will no longer be there every single time you need me, just like you`re not there every single time i need you. the truth is what it is, & that is i do not have anymore respect for you as an individual now. you`re just another face in the crowd. 


it`s amazing the things you realize when you lose someone: you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for granted the days spent doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can be taken, at any time in our lives, but we always wait until they're gone to say the things we never had the courage to before. sometimes just holding hands is holding onto everything <3 sure, you don't think you're pretty. but the gorgeous girl on that myspace page doesn't think she's that hot either. if we stop comparing ourselves to size zero stick-thin models, we may just find our own beauty. our beauty is not defined by our jeans size. it's not defined by our faces. its defined by the things inside our heart ; if we care for other people, if we love, if we're caring, if we're passionate, if we're happy, if we have self esteem.. beauty is much more than being thin and having perfect features. those are nothing compared to real beauty.. what's inside of each and every woman on this earth. if we show what's really inside of us, maybe guys will stop seeing us as a good night.. because we'll know we're better than that. maybe if we stop thinking "if i was that beautiful, life would be perfect" .. because it won't. beauty is not skin-deep. <3 
when "your song" comes on the radio ; turn the station. when the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made & tries calling ; turn your phone off. when he tries coming over ; don`t answer the door. think of the broken promises, the lies, the manipulation, & the tears, the wasted moments. think about how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, & how it felt to your stomach when you saw it wasn`t him & realized once again he hadn`t called when he said he was going to. you're only a teenager. you're not yet married, so go with the flow, laugh tons, use manners, and try something new. just kiss him already. trust your feelings, spend your cash, introduce yourself, take a chance, study hard, seek happiness, and regret nothing. don't laugh at people's dreams, make a wish on 11:11, challenge yourself, take pictures and appreciate the memories. you should make time to dance in your underwear, and learn from the past. play dress up and then take all your clothes off. have the time of your life. she fell asleep for only a minute but when she awoke she found herself lying on his chest, feeling him breathing steadily beneath her. his arm was draped around her shoulders & it seemed like he didn't want her to leave, ever. she whispered in his ear, though she knew he was asleep, "oh baby. if i could wake up like this every single day, i would always be happy." 
summer is for breaking. pack nothing. leave without a note. follow your internal compass. wear what you slept in. sleep in what you`re wearing. use spf. listen to the ocean but don`t take it`s advice word for word. insist on karaoke. display skin. attract a following. steal a heart. lose track of time. live your life. - american eagle <3 in a few years, i'll be off to college. high school will finally be over. i won`t get to see him everyday like i used to. my best friends & i will go our separate ways; we`ll be lucky if two of us stay in touch. nothing will be the same, instead everything will be new. i won`t have a house to come home to everyday. no siblings to scream at. just alone, in a dorm, far away from home. the people i`ve loved for the longest of times will be another memory added to my photo album. | | |
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